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Thursday, October 14, 2010

weight loss

scale says: 144.4

woo! lower half of the 140s! now just gotta keep it that way.

breakfast:
cereal (110)

lunch:
coffee w/ tsp sugar (25)

dinner:
baked chicken breast (140)
green beans (35)
(175)

skinny girl total: 275 (limit 450)
actual total: 310 calories

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i've dropped over 10 lbs but i don't feel any different. when i look in the mirror i don't notice any difference. my boyfriend, who sees my naked body every day, hasn't commented on any difference.

and i'm wondering if it's always going to be like this. will i ever notice the weight loss? will it ever be enough?

i want bones, and sunken cheeks, and thighs that don't touch even if you try to force them together.

i want to be skinny. i hope i start seeing some difference in the mirror soon. at least a glimmer of hope, a possibility of thin, to keep me going.

because right now my hope is drowning in fat, and i need bones to cling to.

hope you all are doing well. stay strong lovlies!
xoxo

9 comments:

  1. congrats on drpping 5lbs! you are doing so well and im sure you will start to notice soon if you keep at this :)

    xoxo

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  2. Yay! Congrats on getting into the low 140's! I'm sure you'll start to notice the differences soon- if you want an accurate record you could take photos? Keep up the great job! xxx

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  3. Of course you'll notice and the weight you've lost probably already is noticeable. A study showed that most men don't even notice weight loss/gain until something like 15-20lbs so don't take your boyfriends lack of compliments/concern to heart. Just keep doing what you're doing because its working so well.

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  4. the problem with noticing weight loss is that we examine ourselves daily...so our only way of telling the difference is by measurements...maybe your bf doesent comment because he also sees you every day :)

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  5. It's because he sees you every day. Go visit someone who hasn't seen you in a while! Or look at old photos. But yeah - As A.S. says - measurements are accurate.

    I'm so happy for you!
    xxK

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  6. take a picture hun! i did that at the beginning of my journey so i can take others at different stages and notice the difference to motivate me.
    good work on the intake - does a baked chicken breast really have that little calories? if so, it's chicken breast for me xx

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  7. congrats on the weightloss
    and everyone is right its going 2 b hard for u to notice it right away cause ur looking for it
    def try taking pictures and measuring

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  8. Oh, darling, you will see a difference. I lost 20 pounds and couldnt see a thing, but everyone else could. whatever. haha. the important thing is getting one step closer to your goal :D

    all my love,

    -Molly

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  9. Congrats on the weight loss!
    You should take before and after pictures,
    might help you see it more clearly.

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