honesty

scale says: 152.8

i know this 1 lb/day loss won't last forever, but damn, i'm going to enjoy it while it does!

breakfast:
green tea w/ tsp of sugar (15)
banana (100)

lunch:
coffee w/ tsp of sugar (15)

dinner:
green beans (35)
cooked white rice (120) with soy sauce (10) and margarine (20)
(185 calories)

skinny girl total: 180 (limit: 300)
actual total: 315 calories

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a few days ago i said that i was going to hide my scale so my boyfriend wouldn't find out i had one. but the day i actually bought it i was like, fuck it, i'm taking it up... and he didn't even care! he still doesn't know how few calories i'm taking in, but he knows i'm trying to take in less, and he's okay with that too. he doesn't even mind the low-fat and fat-free foods i've been buying, like the 45 cal/slice bread, and turkey bacon, and tons of fruits and veggies.

last night i told him that i was thinking of doing a fast in about a month (after sgd) and --to my utter surprise-- he was totally supportive! i told him i would be doing a water fast, and my goal would be detox, not weight loss, but still. a fast would be impossible to hide, so it makes me happy that he'll be okay about it.

i feel so much better being upfront with him. i mean, i still hide the blog and my crazy calorie counting, but i don't have to lie to him about already eating or things like that. i don't have to go out of my way to cover up my lack of eating. i don't have to make food and then throw it in the trash all sneaky-like. it's such a huge relief, and i'm so glad i was honest with him.

stay thin and strong, lovlies!

xoxo